Monday, October 5, 2009
writing from our seventh hotel on the NY/Boston trip.
the hotel rocks. its an old place with like antique everything. it was listed as a luxery spot but the place isnt too expensive with a hotwire.com booking and the parking is just right across the street. its pricey but you cant really do any better whilst in new york. manhattan is an expensive place. i get the feeling the economy being down might spur some cheaper rates but otherwise thats that. the people outside seem kinda crazy, lots of different types, every race firstly ,and many different types of people. those folks that are like me are certainly in the minority. this isn't a city of similar people. everyones different. there are populations of folk like me, but you wont run into every odd person on the street resembling you. new york city kinda gives you that feel that the world is a very very diverse place and its only by moving our way through whats around us will we find things that have meaning to us. you could easily come to some global understanding about things whilst roaming the streets of new york. the MoMa was terrible, i'd been to the one in england and expected good things... but didn't get it. the british one is spectacular, while the american one sucks.
Sunday, October 4, 2009
nyc / east coast day 6
according to this shit its better to like, come in outside of new york by train, and park your car away from new york. so we can either book a hotel here or we can park the car for a week. if we parked the car for a week we could probably take the shuttle down and get hostels. i kinda wanna keep the car with us for now though. and i like the whole thing ive been doing about not booking more than one night at a time.
so i guess brooklyn is where we wanna go. at least, that's where the hipsters are supposed to be. that's where the music scene's supposed to be. that's where most of the people are meant to be at. that's where the cheapest spots to live seem to be at. and that's where i guess i wanna head to today.
apparently bjork is moving to brooklyn. http://www.brownstoner.com/brownstoner/archives/2009/08/bjork_moving_to.php
brooklyn's like a popular spot i guess.
brooklyn heights?
open mics, nyc apparently brooklyn and long island have most of the shows. 5 in brooklyn, 13 in long manhatten.
so i guess brooklyn is where we wanna go. at least, that's where the hipsters are supposed to be. that's where the music scene's supposed to be. that's where most of the people are meant to be at. that's where the cheapest spots to live seem to be at. and that's where i guess i wanna head to today.
apparently bjork is moving to brooklyn. http://www.brownstoner.com/brownstoner/archives/2009/08/bjork_moving_to.php
brooklyn's like a popular spot i guess.
brooklyn heights?
open mics, nyc apparently brooklyn and long island have most of the shows. 5 in brooklyn, 13 in long manhatten.
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Sunday, August 16, 2009
chicago
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chicago
to do list:
top priority:
old house
roycemore
other school
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/World%27s_busiest_airport
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Global_city
to do list:
top priority:
old house
roycemore
other school
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/World%27s_busiest_airport
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Global_city
Friday, August 14, 2009
chicago
http://openmikes.org/calendar/IL
open mics on friday and saturday.
we're planning on being back sunday, and in columbus sunday night.
open mics on friday and saturday.
we're planning on being back sunday, and in columbus sunday night.
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
west coast
so basically:
total distance 6,610 miles - 4 days, 3 hrs driving time
day1(hotel) detroit
3 hrs 24 mins to get there
doable in one day
day2(hotel) chicago
4 hrs 30 mins to get there.
doable in one day
day3(hotel) minneapolis
6 hrs 45 mins to get there
day4(hotel)denver
13hrs to get there
day5(hotel)salt lake city
7hrs27mins to get there
day6(hotel)LA
10hrs3mins to get there
day7(hotel)fresno
3hrs25mins to get there
day8(hotel)sanfrancisco
3hrs4mins to get there
day9(hotel)portland oregon
9hrs59mins to get there
day10(hotel)seattle
2hrs29mins to get there
day11(home)dayton
35hrs to get there
24 hrs in a day - 9 spent sleeping
checkout time tends to be 11 or 12
given that, sleep probably begins latest @ 1 or 2.
1or2through10or11. given checkout time.
so besides that we've got... 10or11 to 1or2. which'd be... 15 hrs. to do shit.
so in a given day there's like, time to travel, time to rest, time to see shit. plus time to sleep.
so outa day 1, of the 15 waking hours we've got, we'll like... spent about 3.5 of 'em getting there, leaving us with... 11.5 to ourselves, to divide between rest & seeing the place.
dad tends to reccomend 2 days to see a place, but if we can get away with driving there, seeing the place, then leaving the next day, that'd rock too.
so we arrive in detroit, with about 11.5 to see the place. then sleep. and wake. around 10 or 11am.
we then depart for chicago which is 4.5 or our 15 leaving us with 10.5 to see the place. again decent ammount of time. we sleep around 1or2 wake around 10or11, and set off.
next is minneapolis, which'll take about 6.75 or our 15, leaving us with like... 8.25 to look around. still decent. sleep, wake, 10 or 11, and depart.
denver'll be like 13 hrs to get there, meaning it'll take 13 of 15, leaving us with 2 hrs. not enough time to see the place, so we'll sleep, wake, explore for 15, sleep, wake and leave. (2 day stay).
next up's salt lake city, with 7.5 hrs of 15 to get there... leaving us wit 7.5 to look around. that's potentially enough in my book. look around, see the sights, sleep, wake, and we're off.
next up's LA. taking us 10 of 15 to get there, leaving us with like, 5 to look around. i dont know, that might be enough, we'll see. given a departure of around 10, plus 10 more to get there, we'd arrive around 8pm. that's a potential problem given the fact that most things are closed then.
total distance 6,610 miles - 4 days, 3 hrs driving time
day1(hotel) detroit
3 hrs 24 mins to get there
doable in one day
day2(hotel) chicago
4 hrs 30 mins to get there.
doable in one day
day3(hotel) minneapolis
6 hrs 45 mins to get there
day4(hotel)denver
13hrs to get there
day5(hotel)salt lake city
7hrs27mins to get there
day6(hotel)LA
10hrs3mins to get there
day7(hotel)fresno
3hrs25mins to get there
day8(hotel)sanfrancisco
3hrs4mins to get there
day9(hotel)portland oregon
9hrs59mins to get there
day10(hotel)seattle
2hrs29mins to get there
day11(home)dayton
35hrs to get there
24 hrs in a day - 9 spent sleeping
checkout time tends to be 11 or 12
given that, sleep probably begins latest @ 1 or 2.
1or2through10or11. given checkout time.
so besides that we've got... 10or11 to 1or2. which'd be... 15 hrs. to do shit.
so in a given day there's like, time to travel, time to rest, time to see shit. plus time to sleep.
so outa day 1, of the 15 waking hours we've got, we'll like... spent about 3.5 of 'em getting there, leaving us with... 11.5 to ourselves, to divide between rest & seeing the place.
dad tends to reccomend 2 days to see a place, but if we can get away with driving there, seeing the place, then leaving the next day, that'd rock too.
so we arrive in detroit, with about 11.5 to see the place. then sleep. and wake. around 10 or 11am.
we then depart for chicago which is 4.5 or our 15 leaving us with 10.5 to see the place. again decent ammount of time. we sleep around 1or2 wake around 10or11, and set off.
next is minneapolis, which'll take about 6.75 or our 15, leaving us with like... 8.25 to look around. still decent. sleep, wake, 10 or 11, and depart.
denver'll be like 13 hrs to get there, meaning it'll take 13 of 15, leaving us with 2 hrs. not enough time to see the place, so we'll sleep, wake, explore for 15, sleep, wake and leave. (2 day stay).
next up's salt lake city, with 7.5 hrs of 15 to get there... leaving us wit 7.5 to look around. that's potentially enough in my book. look around, see the sights, sleep, wake, and we're off.
next up's LA. taking us 10 of 15 to get there, leaving us with like, 5 to look around. i dont know, that might be enough, we'll see. given a departure of around 10, plus 10 more to get there, we'd arrive around 8pm. that's a potential problem given the fact that most things are closed then.
Friday, July 31, 2009
chillin in a panera @ the millenium mall in orlando
so, our roads closed. which means we're going to jacksonville.
the wiki
so the main claim to fame that town has in my opinion is the origin of Black Kids an indie band that got big lately.

where we're at
after jacksonville comes atlanta. supposedly racist.

no idea how it'll be.
then knoxville with kirby from mvs in dayton ohio.
after it'll be cincy perhaps stopping at ikea then home
.
the wiki
so the main claim to fame that town has in my opinion is the origin of Black Kids an indie band that got big lately.

where we're at
after jacksonville comes atlanta. supposedly racist.

no idea how it'll be.
then knoxville with kirby from mvs in dayton ohio.
after it'll be cincy perhaps stopping at ikea then home
.
Thursday, July 30, 2009
orlando to dayton
dayton, cincinnati, lexington, knoxville, atlanta,
4 south to 408
408 west to 91
91 west to 75
75 north to gainesville florida, valdosta, tifton, macon, right through atlanta, whichs huge, dalton, chattanooga looks pretty big, knoxville, corbin, daniel boone national forest, lexington, cincinnati, dayton.
960 miles, 15 hours, there are tolls, but not many. the only tolls are getting out of florida.
so... atlanta looks interesting, knoxville is where kirby is, and uh... then the forest looks kinda cool. the names cool i wonder if he was a real guy and then they named it after the actual guy. and then when we're in cincinnati we can always go to ikea. plus theyve got a zoo, and that jungle jims store that we've never gone to.
4 south to 408
408 west to 91
91 west to 75
75 north to gainesville florida, valdosta, tifton, macon, right through atlanta, whichs huge, dalton, chattanooga looks pretty big, knoxville, corbin, daniel boone national forest, lexington, cincinnati, dayton.
960 miles, 15 hours, there are tolls, but not many. the only tolls are getting out of florida.
so... atlanta looks interesting, knoxville is where kirby is, and uh... then the forest looks kinda cool. the names cool i wonder if he was a real guy and then they named it after the actual guy. and then when we're in cincinnati we can always go to ikea. plus theyve got a zoo, and that jungle jims store that we've never gone to.
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Sunday, July 19, 2009
NY
new york check list:
things already done:
seen / visited times square
stuck anita on her first train
stuck anita on her first nyc subway ride
figured out the subway system somewhat
seen / visited / from the outside / the aircraft carrier
seen / visited / from the outside / the museum of natural history
seen / visited / strawberry fields / central park
bought a bag / times square
taken about 1200 photographs combined
figured out last train time / jersey
seen / visited / grand central station / photographed set of step up 3
things already done:
seen / visited times square
stuck anita on her first train
stuck anita on her first nyc subway ride
figured out the subway system somewhat
seen / visited / from the outside / the aircraft carrier
seen / visited / from the outside / the museum of natural history
seen / visited / strawberry fields / central park
bought a bag / times square
taken about 1200 photographs combined
figured out last train time / jersey
seen / visited / grand central station / photographed set of step up 3
Saturday, July 18, 2009
new york stuff
strawberry fields - http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Strawberry_Fields_(memorial)
field dedicated to john lennon
new york stock exchange
chinatown
central park (strawberry fields)
statue of liberty
museum of modern art (moma)
intrepid sea-air-space museum - air craft carrier - http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Intrepid_Sea-Air-Space_Museum
ellis island (immigrant families)
american museum of natural history
cooper-hewitt museum in andrew carnegie's mansion
little india - east 6th street
hell's kitchen - irish population
little italy - mulberry street area
yorkville - german quarter
united nattions building
chrysler building - http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chrysler_building
world trade center site
statue of liberty ferry (to the island)
trinity church - http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Trinity_Church_(New_York)
wall street - former wall to keep indians out of manhatten, current business center
new york stock exchange - built in 1903
world financial center
chelsea market?
museum of sex?
w4 means west fourth street
times square has: 1,2,3,7,q,n,r,w,s,a,c,e lines running through it(weird names)
field dedicated to john lennon
new york stock exchange
chinatown
central park (strawberry fields)
statue of liberty
museum of modern art (moma)
intrepid sea-air-space museum - air craft carrier - http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Intrepid_Sea-Air-Space_Museum
ellis island (immigrant families)
american museum of natural history
cooper-hewitt museum in andrew carnegie's mansion
little india - east 6th street
hell's kitchen - irish population
little italy - mulberry street area
yorkville - german quarter
united nattions building
chrysler building - http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chrysler_building
world trade center site
statue of liberty ferry (to the island)
trinity church - http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Trinity_Church_(New_York)
wall street - former wall to keep indians out of manhatten, current business center
new york stock exchange - built in 1903
world financial center
chelsea market?
museum of sex?
w4 means west fourth street
times square has: 1,2,3,7,q,n,r,w,s,a,c,e lines running through it(weird names)
Thursday, July 16, 2009
RI 2
community college of rhode island
bank of america skating plaza
waterfire
the providence @ india point park
thayer street
Rhode Island School of Design
Roger Williams Park Zoo
The Arcade Mall
The area which is now Providence was first settled in June 1636 by Roger Williams, and was one of the original Thirteen Colonies of the United States.[9] Williams secured a title from the Narragansett natives around this time and gave the city its present name.
Seven of the fourteen institutions of higher learning in Rhode Island have campuses in Providence (city proper):
Brown University, an Ivy League university
Community College of Rhode Island (Downcity and Liston campuses)
Johnson & Wales University, notable for its culinary and hospitality program
Providence College, a top master's level college and member of the Big East Conference.
Rhode Island College
Rhode Island School of Design (RISD), one of the country's top art colleges
University of Rhode Island (Providence campus).
Providence Station, located between the Rhode Island State House and the downtown district, is served by Amtrak[114] and MBTA Commuter Rail services, with a commuter rail running to Boston.
Roger Williams Park, in the southern part of the city of Providence, Rhode Island, is an elaborately landscaped 427-acre (173 ha) city park and National Historic District.
bank of america skating plaza
waterfire
the providence @ india point park
thayer street
Rhode Island School of Design
Roger Williams Park Zoo
The Arcade Mall
The area which is now Providence was first settled in June 1636 by Roger Williams, and was one of the original Thirteen Colonies of the United States.[9] Williams secured a title from the Narragansett natives around this time and gave the city its present name.
Seven of the fourteen institutions of higher learning in Rhode Island have campuses in Providence (city proper):
Brown University, an Ivy League university
Community College of Rhode Island (Downcity and Liston campuses)
Johnson & Wales University, notable for its culinary and hospitality program
Providence College, a top master's level college and member of the Big East Conference.
Rhode Island College
Rhode Island School of Design (RISD), one of the country's top art colleges
University of Rhode Island (Providence campus).
Providence Station, located between the Rhode Island State House and the downtown district, is served by Amtrak[114] and MBTA Commuter Rail services, with a commuter rail running to Boston.
Roger Williams Park, in the southern part of the city of Providence, Rhode Island, is an elaborately landscaped 427-acre (173 ha) city park and National Historic District.
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
providence rhode island
trolley tours of providence
city hall
providence public library
providence performing arts center
trolley tour:
401.421.3825
on corner of fountain and eddy street
fatty mcgee's dublin pub
55 union street
401.831.3288
books on the squre
471 angell street
401.331.9097
Community College of Rhode Island
bank of america skating plaza
two kennedy plaza
waterfire, fires tended on the three rivers passing through providence
sunset to past midnight
the providence, a replica of a revolutionary war era ship that gets used in pirates of the carribean
naragansett bay
( india point park )
rhode island state capitol - with tours
francis street
401.222.2080
thayer street - college crowd
Rhode Island School of Design
roger williams park
Narragansett Bay Lighthouse Tour
Providence Place Mall
Waterplace Park
Historic Federal Hill
Providence Place Mall
Fleet Skating Center
RISD Museum
East Bay Bike Path
Roger Williams Park Zoo
Trinty Rep
Providence Performing Arts
The Arcade Mall
The State House
Brown University
Thayer Street
Wickendon Street
India Point
Historic Benefit Street
Cable Car Cinema
Avon Cinema
IMAX Cinema
open mic @ brooklyn coffee tea house
730 to 1030
209 Douglas Ave
open mic @ everyman
555 valley st
401.751.3630
city hall
providence public library
providence performing arts center
trolley tour:
401.421.3825
on corner of fountain and eddy street
fatty mcgee's dublin pub
55 union street
401.831.3288
books on the squre
471 angell street
401.331.9097
Community College of Rhode Island
bank of america skating plaza
two kennedy plaza
waterfire, fires tended on the three rivers passing through providence
sunset to past midnight
the providence, a replica of a revolutionary war era ship that gets used in pirates of the carribean
naragansett bay
( india point park )
rhode island state capitol - with tours
francis street
401.222.2080
thayer street - college crowd
Rhode Island School of Design
roger williams park
Narragansett Bay Lighthouse Tour
Providence Place Mall
Waterplace Park
Historic Federal Hill
Providence Place Mall
Fleet Skating Center
RISD Museum
East Bay Bike Path
Roger Williams Park Zoo
Trinty Rep
Providence Performing Arts
The Arcade Mall
The State House
Brown University
Thayer Street
Wickendon Street
India Point
Historic Benefit Street
Cable Car Cinema
Avon Cinema
IMAX Cinema
open mic @ brooklyn coffee tea house
730 to 1030
209 Douglas Ave
open mic @ everyman
555 valley st
401.751.3630
Monday, July 13, 2009
NYC
nyc subway system
its interesting how new jersey and new york are right next to each other.
*central park is a must see
empire state building, not sure about that
*statue of liberty is an icon
*times square is cool to see
not sure about this rockefeller center nonsense
wtf is the deal about brooklyn bridge - manhatten / long island connection
uh, world trade center? destroyed isnt it?
met art - eh... dunno, art museums usually suck.
*wall street - center of the nations financial shiz, might be cool to see.
grand central station? - elaborately done station
united nations HQ - guided tours
subway metrocard / funpass
ellis island - point of entrance to america
macy's - large store, like harrods of london
fifth avenue
natural history museum
sr patricks cathedral
its interesting how new jersey and new york are right next to each other.
*central park is a must see
empire state building, not sure about that
*statue of liberty is an icon
*times square is cool to see
not sure about this rockefeller center nonsense
wtf is the deal about brooklyn bridge - manhatten / long island connection
uh, world trade center? destroyed isnt it?
met art - eh... dunno, art museums usually suck.
*wall street - center of the nations financial shiz, might be cool to see.
grand central station? - elaborately done station
united nations HQ - guided tours
subway metrocard / funpass
ellis island - point of entrance to america
macy's - large store, like harrods of london
fifth avenue
natural history museum
sr patricks cathedral
Friday, May 22, 2009
boston
well anita's done with her drivers liscense and has court coming up soon so that'll wrap that up. she's got her debt sorted, in both sources, and we're nearly good to go to swap cities. we visited sinclair and noticed that you are guarenteed admission @ state schools when graduating from a community college. that'd be the ticket for the boston school, or wherever it is we decide to end up. but boston does seem like a good option.
Thursday, May 14, 2009
detroit & indianapolis
so these're both cities that're 2 hoursish away from dayton, both seem worthwhile for a visit, so we're planning on hitting 'em in the next few days. originally the plan was to hit boston, but as we checked the days, it just didn't seem to make sense. the whole thing about like... driving there, staying there for three nights, coming back, after we'd already been doing alot of shit, like, with her court, and then the recent mail from the gov't. things have been real active, so we're gonna go drop off the check @ the bank to end her debt, which's a huge thing since it blocks her from getting a loan, then also hitting detroit just cuz, for the visit-factor, a place neither of us have been, that's nearby and notable enough to visit, and then there's indianapolis, which just sounds like it'd be interesting to cmoe across, sort of like exploring a jungle, except it's in the middle of indiana. so-called racist town, kinda broken down, and disconnected, i kinda want to sift through the ruins that make up indiana's capital.
Thursday, April 30, 2009
so anita's been bitching lately about how i'm playing games too much. she's also got alot to say about how i've been bothering her about the stuff she's got to do. and also how i hate when she makes me repeat her.
well... firstly. its my fucking right do whatever thf cuk i want to fucking do. you can't fucking control me. if i wanna play a fucking game, then im fucking gonna. you can't fucking make any money, or fucking go to school, or fucking do anything, if you fucking give all your fucking time to someone. that's probably fucking why shit hasn't gotten done lately. and she's fucking trying to say i don't fucking give her attention. well if she fucking let me go over there when i fucking wanted, then fucking shit would fucking be alright. but fucking right now she just fucking comes over, bothers me and goes away. and then she fucking blogs about how i fucking ignore her. she's just fucking bored and trying to get me to appease her. im not fucking here to keep her fucking entertained. ive got shit im trying to do. she's got shit she's trying to do. and in our downtime we spend it with each other. she just doesn't get this simple thing. right now shit isn't right. she's trying to get all my time. she's trying to get me to be with her always. and it's just fucking pissing me off. and it's fucking doing the opposite. she turns herself into something i want to avoid. i fucking need some fucking freedom. a fucking relationship isn't a fucking jail sentance. but it fucking sure feels like that sometimes. some of the shit she fuckin says fuckin really gets on my nerves. tryin to fuckin say i ignoreher. thats fuckin not the truth at all. how many fucking times have i fucking talked to her about her shit. she doesnt understand what a fucking limit is. she doesnt understand what a fucking boundary is. sometimes i need to fucking focus on my shit. if she wants to fuckin join fucking in with what i fuckin do, thats fuckin great. but fuckin otherwise, she's fuckin tryin to just fuckin stop me. don't fucking put yourself as a barrier between me and what i'm trying to do. it's fucking simple. you've gotta understand that there's shit that i do, that i'm gonna wanna do, and there's not a fucking damn thing you can do to stop me. if you wanna fuckin be around me, then fuckin try and do it with me. instead of fucking trying to stop me from doing it, and then fucking just... fucking getting me to do boring shit.
lying on a fucking bed. how fucking boring is that. when im fucking feeling active. i know she's fucking feeling miserable right now. but im fucking not. i fucking know how to avoid that shit. and she fucking tries to fucking get me to lie with her. fucking do nothing all day. im fucking sorry but i have a fucking way of doing shit. and my fucking way gets shit done. your fucking way leaves me fucking not doing anything. that fucking list on my wall fucking hasnt been touched. she's just fucking acting like im supposed ot be there always. so all the shit i used to do i cant do now. fucking rediculous. so im supposed to just fucking volunteer all my fucking time to fucking help her with her fuckign shit and fucking never focus on my shit. this is what she fuckign wants and she's fucking not gonna get it. i was born and i will die. between then i wanna do a few things. supporting someone is ok. but i dont wanna devote every second of my life to doing that. if you wanna fucking be aruond me, do shit with me. if we have nothing in fucking common, then that's the fucking sign that we're not fucking right. you know that we fucking have music in common. maybe there's fucking other things too. fucking figure those out, and fucking do them.
but its fucking rediculous. all the fucking shit i've been feeling, it's fucking true. im just trying to fucking play my game and she comes over and btiches and it's like wtf? why the fuck are you botherin g the fuck out of me just to get me to lie in that stupid uncomfortable bed and do fucking nothing for hours wh the fuck do you think that that's fun and that i am somehow obliged to do sjust because you're my "girlfriend" a title that doesnt mean anything. yes i like you i want the best for youbut that doesnt mean now i become your slave because of it but yeah its rediculous. so im like sitting there on the coch in the middle of a fight and she'll like come between me and the pc on purpose its like she's decided the pc is her enemy and it's like... why are you doing this... you never did this with my guitar... bhut the truth of it is basically its because she doesnt play computer games but she does play music. she used to go disappear in a room and play music and i wouldnt bother her i knew she was busy and i knew she was doing something cool so i was looking forward to her coming out and showing me what she had and thats how it turned out. with this im getting better at a game im coming to understand a genre of game an dits cool and then she's like trying to tear me away from it ebcause apparently the only good thing this game has going for it is the time it takes what a narrowminded view that is man this game does a hell of alot more than that it's teaching me about turn based games which are hugely popular in the industry but ive never really spent much time with at least with the turn based STRATEGY games secondly its a fairly popular game heavily modded and that opens up the programming avenue but thirdly ive not been playing ANY games for a LONG while whereas i used to game EVERY DAY so like this is fucking nothing compared to my EQ days. she needs to have a better appreciation for how much time a realy time consuming game will take from you. but the main thing is if she can't enjoy me playing it maybe she can enjoy playing it herself. yes, maybe she should try the game out instead of demonizing it like some mom or like some evangelical witch-burning fool.
basically im pretty fucking tired of like every loittle fucking like objection when i just do what i want to do. since when did i lose that right. when did i give that shit away. and what exactly am i getting for it. just an earful of bitches. a bedfull of lying around and doing nothing. and a list full of errands and places that im supposed to drive her. she does the fucking laundry and mowes the lawn, but nobody fucking told her to do it. she just does it, then whines cause she "has to" do it. i ask her for sandwiches because i think she doesnt mind and even enjoys it, but even this has now because "one of those things" that basically bother the fuck out of her. her main problem is she's too much of a pussy, she'll hate all the shit she does, but not say a single fucking word about it. instead she'll just sit there, smile, kiss you, hug etc, sit on her pc, like normal. which btw she's completely ignoring. she spends like all day on her pc, with headphones on. at least i dont fucking put phones on. cause if i did she wouldnt eve be able to takl to me. which is like how it is with me and her. i have to like repeat shit like 50 times before she hears me, and by that point i just completely have lost interest in talking to her at all. so she's lookin at me and im just pissed off more than anything for having to repeat myself alot. and like, when there's no music, no tv, why the fuck do you still need to put headphones on. it's fucking rediculous. so basically, you fucking hypocrite, take your damn headphones off before you start bitching about the shit i do. and then the mess, its like, look at your fucking place, youre supposed to be clean, but instead you just live in a mess. wtf. and she's like "cleaning makes me happy". and she's obiovusly like real down right now. then fucking clean. stop being so damn stupid and just clean your shit, and you'l fucking feel better. it's called TAKING CARE OF YOURSELF. try it out sometime. you might find your a way more functional person for it. fuckin rediculous. and then she comes over here, bitches about games. wtf. she games herself. maybe not now, but she's tryin to get me a wii ps3 or xbox360. then i play a pc game, which is the SAME FUCKING THING and then she like fucking bitches. wake the fuck up. you just spent a week trying to get me to buy one. now i have one, and you bitch. welcome to a situation that YOU CREATED. stop bitching and just look in the mirror, because its your own fuckin fault. if you wanna bitch, at least speak the whole truth and mention that it was your idea to buy the game, that i was turning it down. so wake the fuck up. fucking complaining about nonsense. and then the food shit. ok, so i ask for a sandwich. you can always say "no". but apparently thats too difficult for you. and apparently its easier to write like six paragraphs on blogger instead. fucking rediculous. speak your fucking midn out. dont hold back and then bitch on the net. fucking rediculous. walkin around causin trouble. and like, whinin about attention and shit. fuckin rediculous. this place is shitty enough. parents who fuckin are like fuckin prison guards. but when you start to bitch, its like wtf. just fucking cool your fucking shit. wake the fuck up and realize that nobodys trying to fucking fight you. youre just trying to make people feel shitty for no reason. and youre fucking making yourself feel shitty too. its fucking rediculous. you have no reason to do that. except maybe your dad who fucking beat you, your fucking grandpa who fuckin raped you, your fuckin mom who fuckin ignored you, maybe your fuckin schools, maybe your fuckin drug friends, maybe your fucking fuckup friends. who fucking knows. maybe its all of them. maybe its none of them. but the bottom line is thats how you are. fyucking address it. its like she wants me to like, address the fact that im on the pc with a game, yet she doesnt wnana address her own shit. she;s like depressed all the time. she actually goes out of her way to make herself depressed. then there's all the bullshit about like, how she's basically like talkin herself down at every twist and turn. she like, fuckin goes over to her parents, to get yelled at. and then like a few days later, she's taklin bout how she wants to go back. im like... wtf. yourstepdad just yelled and now you wanna head abck there? wtf is wrong with you. wake up and recognize that you needa fuckin avoid that place. if you value yourself at all anyway. if you think you are a piece of shit and eserved to get beaten / yelled at and the like, then fuckin go ahead and walk right into the lions den. otherwise if youre a self respecting and positive person if you think you deserve to be treated with dignity and respect, then fuckin make a decision that fucking backs that fucking viewpoint, and just fucking never go back to your stepdads again.
well... firstly. its my fucking right do whatever thf cuk i want to fucking do. you can't fucking control me. if i wanna play a fucking game, then im fucking gonna. you can't fucking make any money, or fucking go to school, or fucking do anything, if you fucking give all your fucking time to someone. that's probably fucking why shit hasn't gotten done lately. and she's fucking trying to say i don't fucking give her attention. well if she fucking let me go over there when i fucking wanted, then fucking shit would fucking be alright. but fucking right now she just fucking comes over, bothers me and goes away. and then she fucking blogs about how i fucking ignore her. she's just fucking bored and trying to get me to appease her. im not fucking here to keep her fucking entertained. ive got shit im trying to do. she's got shit she's trying to do. and in our downtime we spend it with each other. she just doesn't get this simple thing. right now shit isn't right. she's trying to get all my time. she's trying to get me to be with her always. and it's just fucking pissing me off. and it's fucking doing the opposite. she turns herself into something i want to avoid. i fucking need some fucking freedom. a fucking relationship isn't a fucking jail sentance. but it fucking sure feels like that sometimes. some of the shit she fuckin says fuckin really gets on my nerves. tryin to fuckin say i ignoreher. thats fuckin not the truth at all. how many fucking times have i fucking talked to her about her shit. she doesnt understand what a fucking limit is. she doesnt understand what a fucking boundary is. sometimes i need to fucking focus on my shit. if she wants to fuckin join fucking in with what i fuckin do, thats fuckin great. but fuckin otherwise, she's fuckin tryin to just fuckin stop me. don't fucking put yourself as a barrier between me and what i'm trying to do. it's fucking simple. you've gotta understand that there's shit that i do, that i'm gonna wanna do, and there's not a fucking damn thing you can do to stop me. if you wanna fuckin be around me, then fuckin try and do it with me. instead of fucking trying to stop me from doing it, and then fucking just... fucking getting me to do boring shit.
lying on a fucking bed. how fucking boring is that. when im fucking feeling active. i know she's fucking feeling miserable right now. but im fucking not. i fucking know how to avoid that shit. and she fucking tries to fucking get me to lie with her. fucking do nothing all day. im fucking sorry but i have a fucking way of doing shit. and my fucking way gets shit done. your fucking way leaves me fucking not doing anything. that fucking list on my wall fucking hasnt been touched. she's just fucking acting like im supposed ot be there always. so all the shit i used to do i cant do now. fucking rediculous. so im supposed to just fucking volunteer all my fucking time to fucking help her with her fuckign shit and fucking never focus on my shit. this is what she fuckign wants and she's fucking not gonna get it. i was born and i will die. between then i wanna do a few things. supporting someone is ok. but i dont wanna devote every second of my life to doing that. if you wanna fucking be aruond me, do shit with me. if we have nothing in fucking common, then that's the fucking sign that we're not fucking right. you know that we fucking have music in common. maybe there's fucking other things too. fucking figure those out, and fucking do them.
but its fucking rediculous. all the fucking shit i've been feeling, it's fucking true. im just trying to fucking play my game and she comes over and btiches and it's like wtf? why the fuck are you botherin g the fuck out of me just to get me to lie in that stupid uncomfortable bed and do fucking nothing for hours wh the fuck do you think that that's fun and that i am somehow obliged to do sjust because you're my "girlfriend" a title that doesnt mean anything. yes i like you i want the best for youbut that doesnt mean now i become your slave because of it but yeah its rediculous. so im like sitting there on the coch in the middle of a fight and she'll like come between me and the pc on purpose its like she's decided the pc is her enemy and it's like... why are you doing this... you never did this with my guitar... bhut the truth of it is basically its because she doesnt play computer games but she does play music. she used to go disappear in a room and play music and i wouldnt bother her i knew she was busy and i knew she was doing something cool so i was looking forward to her coming out and showing me what she had and thats how it turned out. with this im getting better at a game im coming to understand a genre of game an dits cool and then she's like trying to tear me away from it ebcause apparently the only good thing this game has going for it is the time it takes what a narrowminded view that is man this game does a hell of alot more than that it's teaching me about turn based games which are hugely popular in the industry but ive never really spent much time with at least with the turn based STRATEGY games secondly its a fairly popular game heavily modded and that opens up the programming avenue but thirdly ive not been playing ANY games for a LONG while whereas i used to game EVERY DAY so like this is fucking nothing compared to my EQ days. she needs to have a better appreciation for how much time a realy time consuming game will take from you. but the main thing is if she can't enjoy me playing it maybe she can enjoy playing it herself. yes, maybe she should try the game out instead of demonizing it like some mom or like some evangelical witch-burning fool.
basically im pretty fucking tired of like every loittle fucking like objection when i just do what i want to do. since when did i lose that right. when did i give that shit away. and what exactly am i getting for it. just an earful of bitches. a bedfull of lying around and doing nothing. and a list full of errands and places that im supposed to drive her. she does the fucking laundry and mowes the lawn, but nobody fucking told her to do it. she just does it, then whines cause she "has to" do it. i ask her for sandwiches because i think she doesnt mind and even enjoys it, but even this has now because "one of those things" that basically bother the fuck out of her. her main problem is she's too much of a pussy, she'll hate all the shit she does, but not say a single fucking word about it. instead she'll just sit there, smile, kiss you, hug etc, sit on her pc, like normal. which btw she's completely ignoring. she spends like all day on her pc, with headphones on. at least i dont fucking put phones on. cause if i did she wouldnt eve be able to takl to me. which is like how it is with me and her. i have to like repeat shit like 50 times before she hears me, and by that point i just completely have lost interest in talking to her at all. so she's lookin at me and im just pissed off more than anything for having to repeat myself alot. and like, when there's no music, no tv, why the fuck do you still need to put headphones on. it's fucking rediculous. so basically, you fucking hypocrite, take your damn headphones off before you start bitching about the shit i do. and then the mess, its like, look at your fucking place, youre supposed to be clean, but instead you just live in a mess. wtf. and she's like "cleaning makes me happy". and she's obiovusly like real down right now. then fucking clean. stop being so damn stupid and just clean your shit, and you'l fucking feel better. it's called TAKING CARE OF YOURSELF. try it out sometime. you might find your a way more functional person for it. fuckin rediculous. and then she comes over here, bitches about games. wtf. she games herself. maybe not now, but she's tryin to get me a wii ps3 or xbox360. then i play a pc game, which is the SAME FUCKING THING and then she like fucking bitches. wake the fuck up. you just spent a week trying to get me to buy one. now i have one, and you bitch. welcome to a situation that YOU CREATED. stop bitching and just look in the mirror, because its your own fuckin fault. if you wanna bitch, at least speak the whole truth and mention that it was your idea to buy the game, that i was turning it down. so wake the fuck up. fucking complaining about nonsense. and then the food shit. ok, so i ask for a sandwich. you can always say "no". but apparently thats too difficult for you. and apparently its easier to write like six paragraphs on blogger instead. fucking rediculous. speak your fucking midn out. dont hold back and then bitch on the net. fucking rediculous. walkin around causin trouble. and like, whinin about attention and shit. fuckin rediculous. this place is shitty enough. parents who fuckin are like fuckin prison guards. but when you start to bitch, its like wtf. just fucking cool your fucking shit. wake the fuck up and realize that nobodys trying to fucking fight you. youre just trying to make people feel shitty for no reason. and youre fucking making yourself feel shitty too. its fucking rediculous. you have no reason to do that. except maybe your dad who fucking beat you, your fucking grandpa who fuckin raped you, your fuckin mom who fuckin ignored you, maybe your fuckin schools, maybe your fuckin drug friends, maybe your fucking fuckup friends. who fucking knows. maybe its all of them. maybe its none of them. but the bottom line is thats how you are. fyucking address it. its like she wants me to like, address the fact that im on the pc with a game, yet she doesnt wnana address her own shit. she;s like depressed all the time. she actually goes out of her way to make herself depressed. then there's all the bullshit about like, how she's basically like talkin herself down at every twist and turn. she like, fuckin goes over to her parents, to get yelled at. and then like a few days later, she's taklin bout how she wants to go back. im like... wtf. yourstepdad just yelled and now you wanna head abck there? wtf is wrong with you. wake up and recognize that you needa fuckin avoid that place. if you value yourself at all anyway. if you think you are a piece of shit and eserved to get beaten / yelled at and the like, then fuckin go ahead and walk right into the lions den. otherwise if youre a self respecting and positive person if you think you deserve to be treated with dignity and respect, then fuckin make a decision that fucking backs that fucking viewpoint, and just fucking never go back to your stepdads again.
Sunday, April 26, 2009
so this whole traveling thing is interesting. we've got like the boston thing sitting hte back ofour minds still of coruse. the land of the punks irish and the east coast bostonian new england capital european HQ that i've been salivating over for awhile. the truth of it is i have no interest in going to Boston persay, but it is a step in the right direction for any sort of England / UK life. Now I've been doign some figuring and it's strange, how i still consider myself british right? because i've lived so many years over here, and you'd think i'd by now maybe give it a rest and just admit that perhaps i'm american. but something inside me has always kinda driven me to kinda proclaim myself british. i was born there, lived there for about... well... seven years. fifteen other years were over here in the states, so go figure. but the thing of it is, is that well ic an probably move back and forth either way without issue, its not a huge deal. i just need to find out like wherei wanna go hah.
Sunday, April 19, 2009
boston - cali - minnesota - colorado - maine
this are indeed places that i am interested of visiting. so there are places where i think i'd like to go to. california is keeping my fancy and making me feel like i'd rather enjoy my own place.
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Friday, January 9, 2009
travel ideas
portland in maine
new york
chicago
minnesota
seattle
fuck portland
fuck sanfrancisco
fuck sacramento for sure
fuck phoenix
fuck california
fuck arizona
kinda wanna go to colorado
fuck texas
fuck atlanta
fuck florida
fuck south carolina
im curious about delaware
vermonts supposed to be really liberal
why do you wanna go to birmingham?
why do you wanna go to liverpool?
yeah, fuck london
fuck ipswich
fuck norwich
fuck bristol
there's fuckin nothin in swansea
are you just fuckin readin names? portsmouth, what the fucks in portsmouth?
oh brightons pretty fuckin cool
you wanna go to aberdeen?
you wanna go to see snowdonia?
what the fuck is in spain?
what the fucks in madrid?
you wanna go to amsterdam?
but what the fucks in belgium?
what the fucks in berlin?
copenhagen, what the fucks in there
scandinavian countries?
you wanna go to norway?
what about sweden?
you wanna go to finland?
how bout iceland?
do ya wanna go to greenland?
what the fucks in ireland?
why do you wanna fuckin go to ukraine?
you wanna go to fuckin rome?
you wanna go to sicily?
what the fucks in morocco?
but what the fucks in egypt?
why the fuck do ya wanna go to new zealand?
fuck korea
do ya wanna go to japan?
why do you fuckin wanna go to china
but the fuck do you wanna go australia
why the fuck do you wanna go to india thailand and indonesia
screw africa
do you wanna go to the arctic?
do you wanna go to south america?
you think we could drive down through south america?
the fucks in venezuela?
and why the fuck do you wanna go to paraguay?
why the fuck you wanna go to argentina?
why the fuck you wanna go to cuba
why fuck you wanna go to canada?
why do you wanna go to alaska?
new york
chicago
minnesota
seattle
fuck portland
fuck sanfrancisco
fuck sacramento for sure
fuck phoenix
fuck california
fuck arizona
kinda wanna go to colorado
fuck texas
fuck atlanta
fuck florida
fuck south carolina
im curious about delaware
vermonts supposed to be really liberal
why do you wanna go to birmingham?
why do you wanna go to liverpool?
yeah, fuck london
fuck ipswich
fuck norwich
fuck bristol
there's fuckin nothin in swansea
are you just fuckin readin names? portsmouth, what the fucks in portsmouth?
oh brightons pretty fuckin cool
you wanna go to aberdeen?
you wanna go to see snowdonia?
what the fuck is in spain?
what the fucks in madrid?
you wanna go to amsterdam?
but what the fucks in belgium?
what the fucks in berlin?
copenhagen, what the fucks in there
scandinavian countries?
you wanna go to norway?
what about sweden?
you wanna go to finland?
how bout iceland?
do ya wanna go to greenland?
what the fucks in ireland?
why do you wanna fuckin go to ukraine?
you wanna go to fuckin rome?
you wanna go to sicily?
what the fucks in morocco?
but what the fucks in egypt?
why the fuck do ya wanna go to new zealand?
fuck korea
do ya wanna go to japan?
why do you fuckin wanna go to china
but the fuck do you wanna go australia
why the fuck do you wanna go to india thailand and indonesia
screw africa
do you wanna go to the arctic?
do you wanna go to south america?
you think we could drive down through south america?
the fucks in venezuela?
and why the fuck do you wanna go to paraguay?
why the fuck you wanna go to argentina?
why the fuck you wanna go to cuba
why fuck you wanna go to canada?
why do you wanna go to alaska?
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